Thursday, October 11, 2012

Help Promote Chaos Grow


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I started getting sick in 1996 or so, I was so exhausted & in so much pain that it was even difficult to just lay around, plus it felt horrible to not be able to work properly. I started this business not only because of my health conditions but because I come from a long line of Entrepreneurs & had the drive to make my own money & at my own hours, especially with my life-long insomnia. I went fro m Dr to Dr for many years trying to get answers. I kept getting told that nothing was wrong with me & that it was "all in my head" or that it was just "severe anxiety". I knew something was seriously wrong, so I kept doing research & changing Dr's, the best results I got was when someone finally said yes something is wrong & diagnosed me with Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. I was so relieved that a Dr was taking me seriously. I tried both the Dr's treatments & holistic approaches. The huge amounts of vitamins would sometimes boost my energy at best. I was still miserable, but determined to not only get answers but to be able to work.

I was told by my Dr to do whatever made me feel better even though that was laying around hardly moving. That wasn't good enough for me. I wanted to & knew I needed to get my business going & work whenever I could force myself enough & of course the times when I had more energy. I first started it under a different business name & worked my ass off while still trying the different treatments until I got to the point where I would just start gagging when trying to force down the huge amount of pills. I was still in a lot of pain all over & still exhausted & was getting no relief or answers, so I continued researching symptoms & trying new Dr's until I finally found one who not only took me seriously but knew I had thyroid disease when she walked into the room & looked at me & my neck. I was beyond relieved that I finally found someone who really cared & wanted me to have the answers & relief.

She did lots of tests & discovered the Fibromyalgia as well. This was all making a lot more sense. It's been a really difficult & mentally & physically draining road for me all of these years, many of which I have felt like a Guinea Pig & a Pin Cushion, but I refuse to give in & quit like so many others would do. That's just not who I am. I used to hold in all of my health problems & worries & would just keep a smile on my face. It was super hard to do, especially since I am such an open & honest person. I kept getting encouraged to talk about my health problems until I started letting a little out but would then feel guilty when someone felt bad for me or acted worried about me. Many times when I'm hurting bad enough I just don't go out, as I used to feel like I was ruining peoples good times because they spent the evenings worrying about me instead of having fun. I've missed many good times & important events because of this & how bad I felt. Since then I have had numerous other health conditions discovered including Fibrocystic Breast Disease (all removed cysts have been non-cancerous thankfully).

Then the real scary part happened, it was discovered after having cysts removed that I have Lupus. The really scary one, SLE. Tons of tests had to be done to re-insure that it was, as my Fibro specialist was hoping it was just the Fibromyalgia & Hypothyroidism screwing up all of my tests & causing the excruciating upper body pain. No such luck.

Then after more extensive tests & me having daily headaches, it was discovered by my Lupus & Fibromyalgia Dr that I have either a Brain Cyst or a tumor. He is normally laughing & joking with me & talking tattoos, but he was as white as his labcoat. I nearly fainted. My aunt died young from Brain Cancer so I was & am even more terrified. Several more MRI's & 2 different Brain Surgeons later it is believed to just be a Brain Cyst that needs to be watched just to re-insure, but they think it's just a cyst. Speaking of which, this will be a reminder to myself to set up my next MRI. I am overdue.

Promoting mostly punk shows is a huge love of mine & has been since 91, but it not only doesn't pay any bills, but it is way too easy & very likely to lose money on punk shows. So for the love of it, I will keep doing them when possible, but as you may have noticed recently, not as many as I was promoting & if more people don't start getting back off their asses & coming to shows again, I will have to stop completely.
Fang, Dec 15th, be there! :-)

Now, my life for close to a year now has been totally turned upside down, things have been crazy & there have been a lot of big changes in my life. This has been the most grueling stressful time in my life, plus I've had a lot of days filled with different levels of sadness for Kristin & Mark & all of us who love her. Kristin & I shared a special health problem bond & that weighs so heavily on my heart, especially when I'm really worried or just feeling horrible. I wish I could still talk to her & make each other laugh & feel better.

Stress makes everything worse & I am forced to work from my bed the majority of the time. Sometimes I want to crawl under a rock, but I'm no quitter - I'm a fighter, so here I am trying my hardest & working from bed, to get my business going again & bigger than it ever was. It is my sole source of income. I have a partner now to help build this into something great. I'm not begging for handouts, but I am asking you to please help us grow, by buying from us, sharing our stuff, liking our page, inviting friends to the page & telling your friends about the store. We are Verified On Paypal, are Trusted Square Trade Sellers & have made it to Top Rated Seller status on ebay. We ship superfast & offer friendly service with free thank you goodies. We have tons of items to choose from including: shoes, collectibles, Vinyl Records, creepers, steeltoes, punk or tattoo related, clothes, funny items, Monster Wrapping Paper, Zombie items, Switchblade Sporks, Bacon Ornaments, Rare Hockey Puck Puzzles, Dashboard Zombies/Jesus/Hula Girls, games, rare funny and/or tasteless Bad Taste Bears, baby gifts, kids & adult gifts & everything in between. New & unusual items are constantly being added. Many of our items are discontinued, rare and/or retired so they are hard to find or sometimes impossible to find elsewhere.

If you don't want to buy anything but wish to donate towards us buying more merch to sell to help grow the business, it is extremely appreciated, as is anything you do to help us get the word out.

To donate to help us grow, please follow this link: https://www.paypal.com/cgi-bin/webscr?cmd=_s-xclick&hosted_button_id=3CDUTPFBJ9US4

Why am I telling you all of the this, especially when at least a few of you think I should keep my health problems to myself? I'm tired of holding it in. I'm tired of hiding it. I'm tired of pretending I feel way better than I do on the rare occasions that I go out. It's all exhausting to me & I have realized that I waste a HUGE amount of my already limited energy hiding how I feel to make others feel better, I can't do it anymore & this is the most stressful & difficult time of my life. If you are one of the people who thinks it's wrong to talk about & possibly even help someone else suffering, then you aren't a true friend & you can get lost. I NEED to do something for myself for a change. Maybe this isn't the best way to do it, I most likely will feel regret after posting this, but I do a lot for other people & I need to vent & do something for myself for a change & by the way, this is the short-er version of everything.

I feel like I've been living a lie in a way, by hiding & internalizing most of what I'm going through. I have 5 different Dr's I need to see as of this moment & I am beyond stressed & worried. I would really like to see my business grow more & also allow me to breathe & not worry as much about all of my bills, co-pays, prescriptions, all of the usual stuff PLUS the 2 Rotties & 3 cats that my ex & I rescued over the years that are all going to be with me, so please tell friends about us & share a link and/or pictures of an item today & I will grant you with 3 wishes, not really, only because I can't, but I would if I could, so how about I owe you a huge hug?? Also, if anyone who shares any of my stuff or comes to the shows has something you want me to share, let me know. When I notice or remember friends events/etc, I share, but I miss a lot on fb & am not actually on fb as much as it appears that I am, due to linked sites, etc.

I truly appreciate any help you can give in helping getting the word out & helping my baby grow into something fantastic. xxoo

Ebay Store: http://stores.ebay.com/PromoteChaosCollectiblesandMore
You can also get to it through: http://www.TheresNoBusinessLikeShoeBusiness.com/

Buying directly from me & not through ebay would be fantastic if you can, want to, as their fees are insane at $200+ PER MONTH! That does not even include Paypal fees.
There are 300+ items in the ebay store, they are not all listed or pictured on our new facebook page yet, but you can purchase any ebay item directly through me & I'll close the listing for it on ebay & on Yardsellr.
This is the NEW fb Store page:
Promote Chaos Collectibles, Shoes, Vinyl Records, Purses & More https://www.facebook.com/PromoteChaosStore

Thanks so much & thank you for taking the time to read, I know I really let loose, but hey, it could be good bathroom reading material.......or firewood. I hope you all feel great!!!!